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July 28, 2011 at 7:55 pm (miscarriage, pregnancy)

I hope that we get some answers tomorrow. My pelvic area STILL hurts. I am still having issues going to the bathroom, I get a shooting pain every time I sit on the toilet for any reason. This is not fun. I can’t say it enough – I just want to return to my normal body.

CONGRATS to all of the recent positive pregnancy tests. I’m so excited for everyone who is striking luck this month! It’s a bit sad but I think that’s how it’ll be for a little while. Jealousy will fade eventually because I’m no green-eyed monster.

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The RE said it looks like a “blob” by my right ovary. It’s probably a blood clot that hasn’t evacuated yet. We will wait it out. They took a urine sample to test in case I have a bladder infection. That is what she thinks could be causing my pelvic pain when I go to the bathroom and in general. They’ll call in the afternoon with some results from all the testings. woot woot.
Next step once all of this is finished: get the tubal xray (the HSG dye test) done. Yippee. I’m in no rush to get that done, though.

I will leave you with a photo of my favorite place in Philadelphia – Logan Square/Swan Fountain

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July 4, 2011 at 10:47 am (conception, pregnancy, RE, TTC)

My hCG went from 51 to 92. Progesterone went from 1.9 to 4. I’m going in the right direction!

More blood work on the 7th and then we should be in the clear!

We are stress free for now!

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Look up, there is good news!

July 2, 2011 at 3:14 pm (conception, pregnancy, Queer Families, RE, TTC)

Today the dr office called back with the results of my blood tests from yesterday. C was worried they wouldn’t call until after the holiday.. but they are awesome and open 7 days a week. So, I left my phone in the freaking car and didn’t get the call, but got an awesome voicemail.

WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!

My HCG came back positive but the progesterone is low. They are having me back in on Monday to do more bloodwork and tomorrow I’ll pick up  my Cronine (sp?) gel. Yea, I’ll be sticking goo-y stuff in my vagina to help the progesterone so that my pregnancy thrives. If this gel doesn’t work to strengthen things, there is risk of miscarriage. The voicemail didn’t say how low it was or how great the HCG was. All that I know until we talk tomorrow is that there is a little something growing in there.

Yesterday we are talking infertility and today we’re talking baby in April/May of 2012. Holy shit balls. At least we know that my body can obviously conceive. My brain hasn’t totally wrapped around it. What if it’s a false pregnancy or a chemical or what if my progesterone really does suck? I am so nervous but optimistic!

For now, we celebrate Baby Rango!!!

 

Ps to those that know me in real life, please don’t tell anyone! We are waiting until the wedding to share the news with our friends and only our moms will know sooner. THANKS!

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Another Moment

January 27, 2011 at 11:42 pm (conception, Family, Get to Know Me, pregnancy, TTC)

Another phenomenal moment in my life is when I became an aunt!!

My niece was born the same day that I graduated high school so I was unable to be there due to that and being a thousand miles away. My sister gave birth in Michigan and I was in Alabama at the time. The day after graduation I moved to Michigan – I got a scholarship to UM-Flint. Seeing that little baby was awesome! She was so tiny and cute and everyone wanted to pinch her little cheeks. ha ha. I think people always feel that way about babies.

I wasn’t allowed to babysit her on my own for a while because she was the new baby and I was inexperienced with munchkins. However, I did get to visit her often and watch her while my sister was sleeping. ha ha. Does that even count for anything? Watching her grow up  has been an amazing experience.

Two years after she was born, my nephew was born. I was there for the birth of E and it was scary as hell! I remember telling my mom afterward that it was the best birth control that I’d ever seen. ha ha. My significant other and I took tons of pictures of the awesome moments before and after. My sister was a real trooper.. she didn’t get any drugs because the labor progressed so fast it was too late by the time she got there. She was screaming so bad it made me cry. I felt horrible for her and wanted to do something to make the pain stop. It wasn’t an easy thing to witness.

Once he came out of her body it was a flood of emotions. If you’ve seen birth.. you know how magical that moment is. When the little one sees the world for the first time and it’s like everything in the room stops just because he’s here now.. precious! He was so alien looking for the 1st few seconds and then it was cuteness. I cried so much during those moments before and after his birth,  you’d think that it was me pushing him out.

For a long time I was terrified about the idea of having kids because of how painful it seemed and how much responsibility a little person is. Sometimes I still get scared about the idea of having babies and then I tell myself that I’m a strong woman and if my sister can do it, I can do it!

That being said.. we are talking about starting to try to conceive once we get settled in Philly!!! Yea, our break lasted a few months.. and it looks like it might be over soon. YAY!

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Ina May, Midwife Extraordinaire

September 10, 2010 at 12:46 pm (pregnancy, TTC)

Last night we went to see Ina May Gaskin talk at the local university. This woman is known worldwide for her techniques in birthing and her assertiveness in dealing with MDs. I was excited to see her because it’s something that is interesting to me because I want to have a home birth via midwife. She has an awesome reputation and it was great to hear her.

I was disappointed though because she focused a lot on how MDs are in the wrong and all the horror stories that can happen from being pushed around by your obstetrician. She didn’t talk very much about the positive aspects of midwifery and the awesome things that midwives bring to pregnancy and birth. i would’ve liked to hear more about those things since Alabama is trying to get midwives legalized again. People don’t know how good midwives could be for them if we aren’t flooding them with those good stories. Scaring people with stories of dying alone and not knowing the risks of C-section isn’t really helping the push to get midwives. It just deters people from seeking any medical assistance during pregnancy and birth. I’ll admit that i don’t know anyone who has had a lot of assistance after the birth with the breastfeeding or moms well being. Once the new mom leaves the hospital she’s supposed to have her family helping her I suppose but they can’t really help with post partum or if she has a complication that can’t be seen obviously. There should be more follow up with women when they leave the hospital to make sure that they are getting rest and eating and staying as healthy as possible for their child.

I think I’ve learned more about midwifery from things I’ve seen online and from the stories of my friend who birthed at home. Hopefully I’ll learn even more as I transition into the stages of using a midwife! :)

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Dreaming of a baby

August 15, 2010 at 8:59 am (conception, pregnancy, Queer Families, TTC, Wedding)

Two of my friends in the last month have told me that they dreamed I was pregnant with TWINS! Holy crap. One being a long lost friend who reconnected with me just to tell me the dream. I hope this is a sign that we’ll be getting preggo on the next try lol. I would love to get the pregnancy train on the tracks finally!

Aren’t we doing the mature thing.. marriage and then baby? haha. Whatever. I’m not as concerned with that part of things. I think the marriage will make it easier for my love to be the other legal parent whereas if we weren’t legal it could get complicated.

Now that the wedding is just a few days away, I’m focusing on how to make the baby again. I should be starting my period any day now. With that out of the way, we can start testing again and get ready for the REs visit. Happy Happy joy joy. One awesome thing done (almost) and on to the next!

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Nada

July 18, 2010 at 10:23 am (conception, pregnancy, TTC)

Still no bleeding and the pregnancy test was negative. I don’t know what’s going on!!

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